And as exhausted as I am, I cannot sleep. So here I am, laying in bed thinking about all the things that apparently my brain doesn’t have time to bother me with during normal business hours… and hey, I have to think them so you obviously get to read them!
2019 has already been a little nuts but looking back at 2018 is even crazier. So many amazing things happened - like the official start of my agency, a couple of pop-ups, meeting some amazing new peoples, tons of traveling, new car haha, new brands, couple new tattoos lol! And some not so great things happened - like losing people who I never thought I would lose in life. “Losing people” is such a funny term - I know where they are, I know they are alive, they are just no longer part of my life but for some reason we say we lost them. Why do we fight for people who don’t want to be a part of our lives? Why does it hurt more to lose the people who chose to leave when you’ve begged them to stay? Why… oh yeah and my heart thing! That kinda sucked in 2018 haha!
Anyway…
Going into 2019 I have no resolutions. I have no new year new me philosophies. And I have no expectations for a big change in myself this year. [okay but I am still pushing through my 2018 resolution of cutting my waste back such as no longer buying bottled water, using straws, using any plastic bags, but most of all I cut back on my food waste!] What I have this year is a very strange sense of self awareness & ambition when it comes to my business. I have a plan for the year and with a little luck and some long ass days it should happen; theoretically!
Not saying that ^^ doesn’t come with its own set or anxieties but they make yoga and a couple pills for that right?! Lol
The plan…
so basically at this point my plan is to - as Tianna put it when I was taking care of her 3 kids (who are 5, 4 & 3 lol); SURVIVE!
The shows…
a huge part of running a wholesale agency is attending buying shows which basically is a huge trade show/market when we agents bring samples of our designers’ collections and retailers write orders for their shops there! Shows are great because you get to meet a ton of new people in a very short people of time - along side running your meetings with your regulars!
I also should mention prep for these show started months ago, calling & emailing for appointments!
This season I am doing KNOWSHOW Vancouver / Jan 15-18, THREDZ Toronto / March 2-5 & TRENDS Edmonton / March 6-10! And I am fucking stoked, not only because I have attending KNOWSHOW & trends before and loved it but because thredz is brand spankin new and should be great!!
The six…
In the middle of attending all these shows I actually move … in 18 days - like officially pack up all my shit and call Toronto home!! This is huge - and scary - and exciting - and nerve wracking! And why I decided to do it smack in the middle of my busy season I will never know but hey, why not!!
I already miss my friends here and I haven’t even moved yet - 2018 has really shown me who is really there for me no matter what! And leaving them is going to suck…
The frenzy…
Ready… set… GO!!! Okay - I go from Vancouver next week home to pack - then I drive to Toronto with all my shit - work in Toronto for a month - go to thredz - fly to Edmonton on a red eye for trends - back to BC maybe to finish up some appointments there - then back to Toronto - back to DV in April to run a workshop at the I am empowered women’s conference - back to Toronto to start mid season sales - back to DV for may long weekend because I promised my best friends I would always be home for May long - then back to Toronto for the start of summer to maybe unpack some boxes?! Haha somewhere in there I have to get to New York for a few days, Montreal for a few days, maybe in the summer I’ll take a work trip out to the Maritimes scouting stores… no sooner does that cycle end but KNOWSHOW summer is Right around my birthday in July!! The 14-16 I think?! So it’s back to Vancouver and legit that whole cycle starts all over again!!! Minus the speaking at the conference, and may long… but I also promised I would always be home for Halloween?! So I have to do that… sheesh can I go back to Mexico yet!!
I think this is why I can’t sleep… my calendar looks like a multi pack of highlighters threw up in it after a 4 day bender…
The reason…
this is what I am meant to do - this is what I am meant for - this is what I will be the fucking bomb at!!
So wish me luck haha somewhere in there I said I needed a bit of luck yeah?!
Anyways I think maybe it’s time to sign off for a bit & try again to get some sleep… which, let’s face it, just means I am going to turn on f•r•i•e•n•d•s and wonder how I ended up older than all them haha!!
edit: it’s now 3:16 & I think this babble fest is ready to post!
Feliz Año Nuevo ✨
chat soon x misty-dawn
